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People, how little they know me.
Sep. 18th, 2008 06:06 pmI just came from my work's Hey Let's All Have A Party Yay Meaning Pizza And Videogames But We're IT Staff So That's What Makes Us Happy. It was fun, really. Aside from the fact that I barely know anyone, due to my social circle not overlapping. But I played Pictionary with some people, adult staff from some other department. Story of my life at parties for the last several years: I end up hanging out with adults for preference.
Aaaaanyway, at one point I ended up talking to my boss. Through a chain of circumstances (mostly involving me failing), I didn't end up working for CS department this semester, and he wanted to know why. (Answer: because I fail and forgot to sign up for hours.) Then he mentioned that while they were deciding whether or not to hire me, he Googled my name and found a picture of me at some school thing. This is actually reassuring, because it shows that I've succeeded in keeping my fandom ID and my real life ID separate. (Good because I'd rather not have other potential employers showing up here, y'know?) I treasure my Internet security.
Then he said that I'm "quiet but smart".
Y'all know me. Some of you know me in real life, and can say for certain. Others will just have to guess from my online tone of voice how quiet a person I am. But that's how I've come across to the people I work for and with.
They don't realize, of course--how could they?--but that's a measurement of how uncomfortable I've been working there. Not that there's a reason to, really, but--they're strangers. When I'm trying to make a good impression, I choose to keep my mouth shut rather than risk putting my foot in it, as I am wont to do. That group has always felt to me like one to which I am an outsider. Plus, I hate making mistakes. So I didn't talk much.
One more thing I owe certain people whose names I can never forget: I now act as though my relaxed, open self is unlikeable.
On the plus side, I have a truly gaudy purple vest. Sometimes the only thing that can rescue a day from suck and drear is a gaudy purple vest.
Aaaaanyway, at one point I ended up talking to my boss. Through a chain of circumstances (mostly involving me failing), I didn't end up working for CS department this semester, and he wanted to know why. (Answer: because I fail and forgot to sign up for hours.) Then he mentioned that while they were deciding whether or not to hire me, he Googled my name and found a picture of me at some school thing. This is actually reassuring, because it shows that I've succeeded in keeping my fandom ID and my real life ID separate. (Good because I'd rather not have other potential employers showing up here, y'know?) I treasure my Internet security.
Then he said that I'm "quiet but smart".
Y'all know me. Some of you know me in real life, and can say for certain. Others will just have to guess from my online tone of voice how quiet a person I am. But that's how I've come across to the people I work for and with.
They don't realize, of course--how could they?--but that's a measurement of how uncomfortable I've been working there. Not that there's a reason to, really, but--they're strangers. When I'm trying to make a good impression, I choose to keep my mouth shut rather than risk putting my foot in it, as I am wont to do. That group has always felt to me like one to which I am an outsider. Plus, I hate making mistakes. So I didn't talk much.
One more thing I owe certain people whose names I can never forget: I now act as though my relaxed, open self is unlikeable.
On the plus side, I have a truly gaudy purple vest. Sometimes the only thing that can rescue a day from suck and drear is a gaudy purple vest.